Semalam, ku renung meja study di dalam bilikku. Teringat ketika dahulu, babahku telah membelinya untuk aku. Agar aku rajin belajar daan membanggakannya. Aku masih ingat, pada waktu itu dia baru pulang daripada kerja. Dalam keadaan letih, dia telah tunjukkanku meja yang telah dia beli. Aku gembira sangat. Akhirnya aku tidak perlu dengar bebelan mak aku kerana menyepahkan buku-buku di atas meja makan. Meja itu tidaklah mahal seperti meja-meja di ikea, tetapi cukup besar untuk aku meletakkan buku-bukuku. Dalam keadaan letih, dia telah memasangkan meja itu agar aku dapat melihatnya. Aku sayang babahku.
"Dah ada meja ni, belajar rajin-rajin. Jangan tidur je." kata ayahku.
Mengalir air mata, mengenangkan pengorbanan ayahku. Terlalu banyak yang dia telah lakukan hingga aku sampai di tahap ini. Dia tidak pernah memukulku. Malah dia mempunyai cara tersendiri untuk anaknya iaitu dengan kasih sayang. Dia tidak pernah letih dalam mengajarku. Dialah orang pertama yang mendengar aku membaca buku merangkak-rangkak sampai aku lancar. Dialah satu-satunya insan yang bersamaku setiap malam untuk menghafal surah-surah dalam Al-Quran ketika aku masuk pertandingan hafazan. Dialah yang setiap kali bila aku keluar rumah, akan sentiasa menasihati aku agar jangan pandang orang yang merokok. Takut nanti orang tu 'guna-guna' -___- ( it doesn't makes sense to me at that time but lama-lama rasa sweet sangat ayahku cakap macam tu)
Babah i really pray that you are free of cancer. I really do. I can't live without u. Tears stroll down my cheeks just knowing that you might have cancer. I want u around with me, until the rest of my life. :'(
"lepas aina dah selesai, babah nak tutup mata. babah tak nak hidup lama-lama" kata ayahku kat kakakku :'(
Update: Tadi babah baru lepas jumpa doctor.Alhamdulillah, he is FREE of cancer. sujud syukur! The mutated gene (JAK2 V61F) they found apparently doesn't effect him. Syukur!
Thursday 6 September 2012
Monday 6 August 2012
The best Physiology book (my point of view)
salam readers.
Today I am going to share with you one of my favourite physiology book. For the past 1 year, I really struggled to survive in UiTM medical faculty. Its hard man. It ain't easy. But people out there, the minute I say I studied in UiTM, their next question would be:
"what course eh?"
and i say "medicine"
and they'll go
"eh...UiTM pun ada medical faculty ke?"
and they will have the 'look'...
dalam kepala mesti fikir *budak ni mesti tak dapat 4 flat. tu yang masuk UiTM tu.
Sorry if I was too judgemental. but yeah...that was the truth when I tell people that I'm a medical student in UiTM. They think its easy. Well dearies, IT ISN'T. I worked my ass off to survive in this faculty. Sorry emo sekejap :)
Anyways, back to the topic. My fav physiology book I have encountered so far is this:
Some of my classmates might have seen me carrying this book around. Well, I tell you, this book is like my 'baby'.
I first knew about this book when I was studying respiratory module. There is only ONE book of this latest edition in my faculty's library. So, every week i would extend the due date. That shows how obsess i was to this book.
Until at one point, I was so malas to extend the book until I kena bayar (quite few ringgit) sebab lambat pulangkan. padan muka to me! hehe...
Why I like this book:
FIRST- short and sweet
This book explains segala benda yang susah in a simple and shorter way. Trust me. This book really makes my life so much more easy. I tried reading guyton and even ganong but after reading them, I was more confused than I was before.
SECOND- some extra info
This book pun ada cerita pasal acid base imbalance taw! cari dalam patho papa yang tebal tu tak de. but this book even ada 1 whole chapter on acid base imbalance. The book also inserts some clinical stuffs.
I stil remember, there's 1 time, my lecturer tanya:
Prof H: Why is there high level of oxytocin during pregnancy but lactation does not occur?
Us: Due to estrogen and progestrone prof.
Prof H: but how? How does progestrone and estrogen works?
Us: *bunyi cengkerik
Prof H: can someone check in guyton?
Budak rajin bawa buku guyton: *mencari-cari dalam guyton. muka hampa.
Me: *cari-cari in my book and i found the answer! raised my hand and try to answer
"it is because the estrogen and progestron block the the receptor. hence the oxytocin can't bind to receptor which cause lactation. during parturition, the estrogen and progestrone drops significantly which enables oxytocin to bind to its receptor and cause lactation"
Prof H: good... :)
THIRD- this book is 10X lighter than guyton!
go get it now!
Today I am going to share with you one of my favourite physiology book. For the past 1 year, I really struggled to survive in UiTM medical faculty. Its hard man. It ain't easy. But people out there, the minute I say I studied in UiTM, their next question would be:
"what course eh?"
and i say "medicine"
and they'll go
"eh...UiTM pun ada medical faculty ke?"
and they will have the 'look'...
dalam kepala mesti fikir *budak ni mesti tak dapat 4 flat. tu yang masuk UiTM tu.
Sorry if I was too judgemental. but yeah...that was the truth when I tell people that I'm a medical student in UiTM. They think its easy. Well dearies, IT ISN'T. I worked my ass off to survive in this faculty. Sorry emo sekejap :)
Anyways, back to the topic. My fav physiology book I have encountered so far is this:
Some of my classmates might have seen me carrying this book around. Well, I tell you, this book is like my 'baby'.
I first knew about this book when I was studying respiratory module. There is only ONE book of this latest edition in my faculty's library. So, every week i would extend the due date. That shows how obsess i was to this book.
Until at one point, I was so malas to extend the book until I kena bayar (quite few ringgit) sebab lambat pulangkan. padan muka to me! hehe...
Why I like this book:
FIRST- short and sweet
This book explains segala benda yang susah in a simple and shorter way. Trust me. This book really makes my life so much more easy. I tried reading guyton and even ganong but after reading them, I was more confused than I was before.
SECOND- some extra info
This book pun ada cerita pasal acid base imbalance taw! cari dalam patho papa yang tebal tu tak de. but this book even ada 1 whole chapter on acid base imbalance. The book also inserts some clinical stuffs.
I stil remember, there's 1 time, my lecturer tanya:
Prof H: Why is there high level of oxytocin during pregnancy but lactation does not occur?
Us: Due to estrogen and progestrone prof.
Prof H: but how? How does progestrone and estrogen works?
Us: *bunyi cengkerik
Prof H: can someone check in guyton?
Budak rajin bawa buku guyton: *mencari-cari dalam guyton. muka hampa.
Me: *cari-cari in my book and i found the answer! raised my hand and try to answer
"it is because the estrogen and progestron block the the receptor. hence the oxytocin can't bind to receptor which cause lactation. during parturition, the estrogen and progestrone drops significantly which enables oxytocin to bind to its receptor and cause lactation"
Prof H: good... :)
THIRD- this book is 10X lighter than guyton!
go get it now!
Saturday 28 July 2012
random
salam,
alhamdulillah, hari rabu yang lepas, baru je habis year 1. syukur sangat lepas penat lelah selama 2 minggu, everything ends here. habes dah. sangat terharu dengan kenangan2 yang dapat masa year 1. all the tears, sweat and joy are all paid off. first of all nak cerita pasal:
kampus:
budak year one ritu dah pindah kan segala buku-buku yang ridiculously heavy tu ke store kat kampus sungai buloh. awal-awal dah minta permission babah untuk pinjam kereta nak hantar buku kat sana. first of all sebab x nak susahkan orang angkat buku-buku saya yang banyak tu. 3 kotak ok! secondly, sebab nak......hehe..of kos la, budak medik kan jarang kluar (is it only me?) nak gak rasa kluar dengan BFF time puasa ni. we decided to go to TS. jam mula-mula. but nasib baik kitaorg kluar kl before 5. thx to papago. :)
tt and me, gilir-gilir bawak kereta. knowing me, low stamina, cepat penat, i need a co-kapten. nasib baik tt ada. and at that time, kena kejar dengan ROMEOT. do u know him? let me tell u a story how we named him romeot. it was something like this:
syifa: aina, ada pakcik ikut keta kau la dari tepi.
me: ye ke. biar la dia.
syifa: dia ikut lagi. pastu pandang-pandang. Romeo betul.
una: tu bukan romeo la. x hensem pun. romeo patutnya hensem
syifa: kalau x romeo, habestu x kan ROMEOT lak??
hahaha...at that time, all of us burst into laughter. kelakar dengar cara syifa cakap. macam joyah. hehe...kami memang 3J pun. Joyah, jenab and jelo. *una je belum ada lagi. ur time will come dear...ngengehngeh.
love life:
yeah, i moved on. it was hard at first but i managed to gain my strength back. not interested in meeting any guy. fullstop.
friends:
i am really blessed. u wanna know why? kat sini, di shah alam, saya dapat kawan yang sangat-sangat lah kamcing dengan saya. another plus point, dorang semua good at heart. seriously, my frens, everytime rasa mcm nak marah je, they'll say 'chill, relax, no point of getting angry' and dorang x kan mengapi-apikan sape2. they always make me think positive. dorang x mengumpat, x backstab, x bersangka buruk, sentiasa memaafkan. memang la kadang-kadang akan ada terasa sesama sendri, but at the end of the day, do u really want to ruin ur relationship just because this small things? not worth it. AT ALL!
last but not least:
did u know that radzwan radzwill is on pop look?! go check it out. but yeah, the design was just too plain
ADIOS!
alhamdulillah, hari rabu yang lepas, baru je habis year 1. syukur sangat lepas penat lelah selama 2 minggu, everything ends here. habes dah. sangat terharu dengan kenangan2 yang dapat masa year 1. all the tears, sweat and joy are all paid off. first of all nak cerita pasal:
kampus:
budak year one ritu dah pindah kan segala buku-buku yang ridiculously heavy tu ke store kat kampus sungai buloh. awal-awal dah minta permission babah untuk pinjam kereta nak hantar buku kat sana. first of all sebab x nak susahkan orang angkat buku-buku saya yang banyak tu. 3 kotak ok! secondly, sebab nak......hehe..of kos la, budak medik kan jarang kluar (is it only me?) nak gak rasa kluar dengan BFF time puasa ni. we decided to go to TS. jam mula-mula. but nasib baik kitaorg kluar kl before 5. thx to papago. :)
tt and me, gilir-gilir bawak kereta. knowing me, low stamina, cepat penat, i need a co-kapten. nasib baik tt ada. and at that time, kena kejar dengan ROMEOT. do u know him? let me tell u a story how we named him romeot. it was something like this:
syifa: aina, ada pakcik ikut keta kau la dari tepi.
me: ye ke. biar la dia.
syifa: dia ikut lagi. pastu pandang-pandang. Romeo betul.
una: tu bukan romeo la. x hensem pun. romeo patutnya hensem
syifa: kalau x romeo, habestu x kan ROMEOT lak??
hahaha...at that time, all of us burst into laughter. kelakar dengar cara syifa cakap. macam joyah. hehe...kami memang 3J pun. Joyah, jenab and jelo. *una je belum ada lagi. ur time will come dear...ngengehngeh.
love life:
yeah, i moved on. it was hard at first but i managed to gain my strength back. not interested in meeting any guy. fullstop.
friends:
i am really blessed. u wanna know why? kat sini, di shah alam, saya dapat kawan yang sangat-sangat lah kamcing dengan saya. another plus point, dorang semua good at heart. seriously, my frens, everytime rasa mcm nak marah je, they'll say 'chill, relax, no point of getting angry' and dorang x kan mengapi-apikan sape2. they always make me think positive. dorang x mengumpat, x backstab, x bersangka buruk, sentiasa memaafkan. memang la kadang-kadang akan ada terasa sesama sendri, but at the end of the day, do u really want to ruin ur relationship just because this small things? not worth it. AT ALL!
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| sahabat dunia akhirat. insyaAllah :) |
did u know that radzwan radzwill is on pop look?! go check it out. but yeah, the design was just too plain
ADIOS!
Friday 22 June 2012
sadness...
salam,
1. how do u feel when you really want something but that something can either make you really happy or really devastated?
2. how do u feel when u look at something that u really hate but u have no power to stop the things that u see?
3. how do u feel when the thing that gives u courage to keep on moving but at last, it just disappear?
last but not least,
what will u do if there is no hope anymore?
please enlighten me :(
1. how do u feel when you really want something but that something can either make you really happy or really devastated?
2. how do u feel when u look at something that u really hate but u have no power to stop the things that u see?
3. how do u feel when the thing that gives u courage to keep on moving but at last, it just disappear?
last but not least,
what will u do if there is no hope anymore?
please enlighten me :(
Thursday 8 March 2012
semoga dipermudahkan..
doakan ye saya dimudahkan menjawab soalan pt dan majlis kakak saya berjalan dgn lancar. amin...
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| ni la pelamin time dia nikah rini. #bunga kkat dinding tu saya buat masa cuti 2 minggu...penat wooo... |
Saturday 25 February 2012
can u find the similarities?
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| garden theme wedding |
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| japanese style |
sebenarnya tak ada apa-apa yang sama pun dalam gambar ni cuma both the wedding was held at the same hall. subhanallah! kreatifnya manusia ni.
p.s. nak buat pelamin macam ni must at least ada 30K....*coughs*
2 minggu yang macam 2 hari
assalamualaikum,
wah, berhabuk dah blog ni. sungguh lama tidak update blog ni. yeah, budak medic memang busy je (alasan!). tergerak nak update pun disebabkan pengasas GeBU (geng blogger) add masuk group dorang...huhu...amat memalukan ye di situ kerana saya bukan blogger yang tegar! haha...hanyalah melukut di tepi gantang sahaja.
just nak cerita, esok adalah hari last duduk di rumah selepas telah honeymoon selama 2 minggu. 2 minggu untuk pelajar medik amatlah bermakna bagi kami ye. time tu la nak renew lesen, time tu la nak p tabung haji, time tu la nak repair kasut yang rosak... time tu la.........and the list goes on........
for me, this 2 weeks have been hectic! mana tak nya, wedding planner kakak ku telah back off last minute. yup, A MONTH before the wedding dia tarik diri.. and the best part is, the wedding planner handles everything! from the dresses till the pelamin. nasib baik dia tak handle food.
sian my sis. bayangkan, sebulan sebelum nak kahwin, baju nikah pun tiada! dah la my sis ni sangat 'teliti' orangnya. 2 minggu ni la asyik teman dia pergi suma kedai kain. sampai bangla kat kl tu pun dah cam agaknya muka kami. haha...siap ingat lagi tagline dia " adik akak manis, mari masuk kedai. macam-macam kain ada. schiffon, french lace, gorget...murah-murah"... murah apa nya,kain schiffon satu meter je dah cecah RM135...4 meter? dah berapa ratus...tu tak termasuk lining dalam tu. mmg makan pasir la lepas kahwin jawabnya
alhamdulillah, lepas dah banyak jalan, archilles tendon masing-masing pun dah tegang, dapat la juga apa yang kami nak. walaupun tak seperti yang dirancang, my sis still can tolerate here and there.
and dalam 2 minggu ni juga dah dapat result first sem ku. yup, still maintaining the result. tak mahu naik ye awak ni?...hehe... saya amat bersyukur sebab pass but at the same time i want to do better. saya dah usaha, tapi mungkin rezeki tidak di sini. atau mungkin istidraj. papepun, saya bersyukur kerana mendapat 2 orang yang sangat memahami saya. mereka tidak marah kerana mereka tahu yang kemarahan tidak akan mengubah apa-apa. mereka tidak gembira kerana mereka mahukan saya buat yang lebih baik. anyways, i will start using my plan B for this next sem. study smart! chaiyok aina!
wah, berhabuk dah blog ni. sungguh lama tidak update blog ni. yeah, budak medic memang busy je (alasan!). tergerak nak update pun disebabkan pengasas GeBU (geng blogger) add masuk group dorang...huhu...amat memalukan ye di situ kerana saya bukan blogger yang tegar! haha...hanyalah melukut di tepi gantang sahaja.
just nak cerita, esok adalah hari last duduk di rumah selepas telah honeymoon selama 2 minggu. 2 minggu untuk pelajar medik amatlah bermakna bagi kami ye. time tu la nak renew lesen, time tu la nak p tabung haji, time tu la nak repair kasut yang rosak... time tu la.........and the list goes on........
for me, this 2 weeks have been hectic! mana tak nya, wedding planner kakak ku telah back off last minute. yup, A MONTH before the wedding dia tarik diri.. and the best part is, the wedding planner handles everything! from the dresses till the pelamin. nasib baik dia tak handle food.
sian my sis. bayangkan, sebulan sebelum nak kahwin, baju nikah pun tiada! dah la my sis ni sangat 'teliti' orangnya. 2 minggu ni la asyik teman dia pergi suma kedai kain. sampai bangla kat kl tu pun dah cam agaknya muka kami. haha...siap ingat lagi tagline dia " adik akak manis, mari masuk kedai. macam-macam kain ada. schiffon, french lace, gorget...murah-murah"... murah apa nya,kain schiffon satu meter je dah cecah RM135...4 meter? dah berapa ratus...tu tak termasuk lining dalam tu. mmg makan pasir la lepas kahwin jawabnya
alhamdulillah, lepas dah banyak jalan, archilles tendon masing-masing pun dah tegang, dapat la juga apa yang kami nak. walaupun tak seperti yang dirancang, my sis still can tolerate here and there.
and dalam 2 minggu ni juga dah dapat result first sem ku. yup, still maintaining the result. tak mahu naik ye awak ni?...hehe... saya amat bersyukur sebab pass but at the same time i want to do better. saya dah usaha, tapi mungkin rezeki tidak di sini. atau mungkin istidraj. papepun, saya bersyukur kerana mendapat 2 orang yang sangat memahami saya. mereka tidak marah kerana mereka tahu yang kemarahan tidak akan mengubah apa-apa. mereka tidak gembira kerana mereka mahukan saya buat yang lebih baik. anyways, i will start using my plan B for this next sem. study smart! chaiyok aina!
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